Shhhhhhit!

I'm an evil genius. I really am.
I went to the barn today, hell yeah. It was hot as shit though, thank god. I hate the heat, but I get over heated so easily. :) This is the first time ever I'm glad that the sun ate me alive and the humidity sucked me dry. Perfect excuse for this dinner tonight. Walked in the house to my mom, cooking, and told her I felt like crap - too hot. She knows I get all "stuck in bed" when I get over heated. Can't eat or anything! ..But I do, however, have to go back to the barn tomorrow for a lesson. Gonna have to tough that out. I kinda did get over heated today. But, so worth it.

So for dinner, Mom also baked some KEY LIME PIES! She makes the best. No fair.
I'll take a laxative beforehand, sit through the dinner, munch on the real food, have a legit size amount of dessert.

BTW :) - Today I am 145.8 lbs. The barn sucks all the fat out of me.
Even if I do gain tonight, even a tiny bit, I'll work twice as much off tomorrow at the barn, again.
Riding is a lot more work than people give it credit to be.

Okay, I seem happy? Well, to an extent. But this dinner is my Immortal Enemy. Do you know how much is gonna be left over? Enough for Africa to get obese. After the first day of fasting, it's alwaysss easier from there. Well, my mom is practically a Class A cook. It's like jizz-in-your-pants good. Stupid.

That girl in my head tells me I'm a healthy, grownin' girl. I should stuff my face, endulge! Go ahead, you'll work it off tomorrow if you're worried..
She sounds so sweet. But the other voice tells me every wiff I get of food will only make my chances of going to Hell that much greater. I am disgusting and trash. Thin is clean, pure, good.
...The other girl scares the sweet girl away alot.