So, some ana-God is watching over me, helping me out. I ate my house down last night and I'm still 144. Laxatives are one of god's greatest creations. :)
SO.. haha, today I actually can be strong. I miss being hungry. Worst thing about last night though was I wasn't even hungry. I just like food. Oh, adn I got so full, I just threw up. Haha, My stomach couldn't hold it all. And after I threw up about 10lbs of food, I was still really full. I can't do this anymore though.
Today I am strong. No problem. Today I have control. Easy.
Today I am going to my mom's office with my brother. Okay. Today I think I'm gona be forced to eat. Not cool.
I think I can use the "don't feel good" excuse. It's been about a week since I threw that one at my mom. And she knew I ate half the house. I'm so in the clear :)
HOLY CRAP I'm starting to like the number 144. But I'm moving out of it's safety house. I'm gonna meet it's neighbor, 143 :)
Laxatives are awfulllll. =(
ReplyDeleteYes, go meet its neighbor! I'm at 143 right now. It's not that cool. =( LOL but its a step in the right direction!!!
Aw, at least you're able to throw it up again ;)
ReplyDeleteOh, and meeting new neightbours is always nice ;) You're strong, don't give up =)