so i promise to get back to regular blogging and details on stuff saturday.. but i don't have the time or energy to do that this week so here...
yesterday (wednesday) - kind of weak. purged. laxatives.
today - couldn't help myself. purged. laxatives.
tomorrow - OH SWEET JESUS I NEED TO STOP EATING
i think my problem is being around people and food at the same time. it's all just there and perfect. but when i'm home alone or on my own somewhere like at school i'm fine. starting tuesday i could go weeks without eating. school helps.
i'm scared to weigh myself. but i did eventually get to 141 :) oh and i did have grilled cheese.
anyways, i just woke from a nap. my knees, ankles, and butt hurts like SHIT. camp is killing me. tomorrow is gona be the hardest. OH i get my hair died again :D bright ass red in the back. hell yeah. i kinda can't wait for school to start. easier to stop eating andd i like making myself pretty. i give up during the summer lol, no reason to put make up on if the only place i go to is the barn and my bed.
anyways, wish me luck for tomorrow and i'll totally be back to blogging like a true blogger saturday or sunday. i think i'm gona sleep all saturday. my body hurts so bad.
be strong.
love you girls :)
Good luck. I know you can do it!
ReplyDeleteCareful with the lax's & purging... maybe you should just let yourself enjoy what you are eating without punishing yourself after.. so that you can get it out of your system. Then you can get back to doing what you do best: restricting & getting tiny =)
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good luckkkkk
ReplyDeletescrew the lax girl. get rid of them damn things. they are evil. and being sore means you got a good workout! <3 thats always good. hope ya come back soon!