day 2!

so i lost 6 lbs last night! i'm back to 142 :) hell yeah. and that number didn't let me know it was okay to have 50 calories. that number told me to keep going!

so the fast is going fabulous. i guess i'm pretty motivated. but i don't think about food now. at all. even when i smell the fungus they call food in the school cafe. i don't have to tell myself no. i make food when i get home and flush it and i don't even smell it. maybe it's just easier now. i mean when i get home i have at least 2 cups of coffee and "too many" cigarettes because school is just too dang long lol. i try to keep myself awake. and i'm not all that weak. just in the morning. i just need to get some blood running to feel okay. no awesome light headed-ness yet though.
ps. i've gone like 20 days w/o food.. and fainted in school. but i wasn't drinking water or coffee or smoking or poppin' mints like i am now. this really seems to take the hunger and side effects away. i always have SOMETHING in me.

for those of you who think this may be too long or dangerous, it is to an extent. i'm not exercising though. cept for my one gym class but it's just a gym class.. we don't run til we drop like i would if i was on my own. and don't worry, i won't change my mind and work my brains out. it's too hot for me to leave the house and i hypervenelate on the treadmill cuz i'm not moving. and fasting is actually used as a way to cleanse the body and heal. it can heal your insides, you body will sort of "eat" things away, shit i don't remember all the facts of what it takes away but i remember reading about it and being like "oh that would help me". and i have tendonitis.. ha, i hope my body doesn't eat my tendons but maybe it could help. idk.

so my dream boy i see everyday in school now.. he won't STFU about my weight loss. everytime he sees me it's all "omg you're skinny" or "damn girl you thin" blah blah blah. it's reassuring but annoyingggg. it's okay. i let him. he's beautiful. :) lol

i hope i can motivate some of you girls :)
i don't recommend the long fasts like i'm about to get into now that school's here, but.. just work hard.
i can do it, you can do it.
stay strong ladies :)

OH almost forgot. my ribs, spine, hip, and shoulder bones are trying to escape my skinnn. my hips bones hold up my pants. woot. i'm gona start hiding my body soon. when it's less hot outside. i'm so off the hook it's not even funny.