ugh WHATEVERR

So last night my friend was over. She kind of knows about my relationship with food. And I pray she's not stalking my blog now, because she said she might. Anyways, last night she ate so much. She kept shoving cheesecake and key lime pie in my face. I'm proud to say I didn't even lick it. I did have 3/4 a cup of popcorn though. That's not even 50 calories. I stayed under 500 like I planned. And.. I don't have to throw myself in a sewer. I'm 144 as of today. Not proud of the number, just glad I broke 145. Which means I'm about to drop 5 lbs out of the sky, I think. Last time I broke a weight I was stuck at, I dropped like no one's business.

I just got off the treadmill. 300 calories. All I've had today is 2 crackers. I plan on keeping it really low or nothing it all. I plan not to eat til Friday, but if I do, be reasonable. I'm NOT going back to 145. Laxatives are saving my life here.

Don't have to worry about going to the bitch-friend's house. She's a bitch, after all. Always changing plans without telling me. So just not going. Which is good, I always have to eat there 'cause her mom feeds me like an endless pit. ..I'm really sick of this bitch. I love her family, I just can't stand her. I should be a bitch and just not go to her sweet 16 this Saturday. :) No one's gonna show up anyways, it's going to suck. Why would I want to be there?

I think I'll sleep most of the day away or walk some more. Won't be too hard resisting today. Should cook some food and toss it anyway, can't have my brother asking questions.

...I feel like crap.