hey guys! camp's over! and my body wants to give up and be burried. yayyy...
anyways, laxatives have torn apart my insides, away with those! ughh ow much? i'm at 145, or i was yesterday with a bunch of food inside me. the laxatives did their dirty work and i should be lower but i'ma try not to weigh myself til tomorrow morning. i;m sick, gross, hot, and sore. i'm just fasting til school starts. tuesday. then i get to ride again and i'll drop like a sac of potatoes! so tuesday .. or wednesday morning/night i shoulddddddd be around my little 140 self again.
so my bitch-friend is over for the weekend cuz my parents aren't home. last night we had a bunch of boys over. like 5 boys and us 2 girls. ..you could say it was fun :D but being with her makes it hard to not eat. her and food is like ..ugh. she always has to be eating. ...i gota be strong.
i'm flushing all our decent food. well, some. to make her think i ate. gota have something to dispose of when my parents get back so they think i ate.
oh i made this AMAZING chicken dip stuff lol. i'd love to let yall know how to make it BUT .. that could cause damage. if you really want it for a special planned binge or a 'normal day of eating', then e-mail me. it's simple and just flat out fabulous!
today - tuesday. fasting. if i break this fast, i am dirty trash. i need to look good for school. make everyone jealous. i wana make everyone go, "oh my gosh! you lost weight!"
i'm gross. i'm nasty.
i'm fasting. i'm strong.
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Stay strong, darling. You'll be thin in no time. Just keep up the fasting, but don't make yourself pass out or anything. Have some fruit juice if you absolutely NEED to have something. Much love
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