soo... yesterday...

so yesterday i went shopping! :D me and my mom's bf went all out. i got like 7 pairs of size 4 & 6 jeans (some 4s fit perfect but my hips are too big :( .. ) and a few cute shirts. and like 7 34C bras. i used to be a 34D but with all the weight i lost, my boobs are drifting away too. which i don't mind one bit. oh, and like every pair of jeans i tried on i swear i left blood in because the cuts on my hip were so torn up after shopping. they're on their way to recovery now, they'll be disappearing by tomorrow.

i was also forced to eat 3 times. COME ON. family lunch at this great pizza place. i got spinach dip, and purged in a public restroom. no one was in there, but still.. it's like against my rules. and again at dinner. at first my mom was like "okay whatever don't eat" and then i was gona go take a shower and my mom and her bf teamed up on me to eat. wow, okay. so i ate and purged in the shower. then my friend came over and we were watching tv, she wanted snacks. seriously? she just had dinner at her house too. omg. so i munched with her. i have horrible acid reflex and a disfunctional flap in my stomach so little bits kept coming back up :) but i didn't purge... i took some stool softeners and about 5am this morning they started kicking in.

today i'm going to the barn and riding. i have a lesson. my sunday lessons are always hardcore so i better be 138 by the time i get home today. then i have to study hardcore for spanish and finish up some algebra 2, yayyy. ugh. i love math but i suck at algebra. i never really learned algebra 1 because my teacher was like "oh this is easy, figure it out"... yeah k.

anyways, yesterday sucked foodwise but shopping was fun. i can't freakin' believe i fit in those size 4 jeans... wow. i still see myself as a fat, gross, piece of crap. i should be a size 50 or something...


stay strong ladies.