So last night I went downstairs looking for something to munch on.. I wanted to shove everything in my mouth! Not out of hunger, more so because everything just looked good. But I only had a cracker :) Then I did about 600 crunches before bed. Then another 200 in the middle of the night because I just happen to always wake up in the middle of the night. Yeah, annoying.
Guess what secret the scale told me today? 143. I knew I could do it. I just gota work twice as hard now and eat maybe half as much. I can get 140!
Anyways, I've had people telling me it's stupid to start smoking to lose weight. And .. I agree. But I started months ago, before my weight was a big concern. I don't remember how I did either.. but I wasn't with friends, I know that .. And all I said was I heard that smoking could boost the fat burning gene, idk if it does but "studies show" or whatever. I had planned on quitting about a month ago, then I took control of my weight and I'm using smoking to sort of stay away from food.
SO TODAY:
I think my friend's mom is taking us to the barn and we're going back to her place? :/ I'm living on the treadmill (as soon as everyone leaves the house) 'til I get picked up. If I get to 500cal before someone gets here I'll do as many crunches as I can.
..It's gonna be so hard to look away from food at her house. Especially since everytime I'm in front of her mom, I eat like a starving pig. But I want 140 worse than ever now. I can be strong. :)
Okay, good deal.
ReplyDeleteI thought you were gonna START smoking to lose weight. You were already a smoker before you started this. Kk. I mean, I was a smoker since I was 14 and I have quit smoking for two weeks now because I am sick of smoking and it is nasty. But, hopefully you will quit one day =)
And what is this deal with "the barn" all the time? Like whats at the barn? What do you do in the barn? =( You'll stay strong honey bunny. You want to see 140! =D
you can do it. <3
ReplyDeleteAwh, thank you so much for your comment on my blog. It made me feel so much better! I think right now I'm not able to live without this little world I've created for myself. Maybe one day but not now. So I'll just go with it.
ReplyDeleteGood job on your food resistance and weight loss. ; )