so i ate yesterday like a normal person? idk.. i think it was normal? at least, when i got home. my mom thinks i'm bulimic because when i do eat, i eat so much. which is true. .. ugh. i suck.
anyways, i'm 140 this morning. never again. i don't wana see that number EVER AGAIN. unacceptable. i'll try to fast today. ..shouldn't be so hard because i'm oh my death bed sick. i've been coughing so much my abs are in screaming pain. and my nose feels like it's giving birth? haha idk that's the only analogy i could think of, not that i know what giving birth is like lol.
so last night, my beautiful dream boy called me! i mean, he was getting high lol, but he still thought about me to the extent he felt the need to call me and tell me he misses me.. even though we see each other every morning in gym :) .. thank god he didn't see me weezing through the mile last week though lol. but yeah, that made me so happy. i wish i could have talked more, i was coughing so much and trying to breath in general.. he woke me up from finally getting to sleep. that's okay. i'd jump through fire for him.
i'd be crying my eyes out because i'm 140 if it weren't for him calling me last night. he just makes me so happy...
oh, haha while i was sleeping last night, i woke up spazzing. i had to breathe through my mouth because my nose is so backed up.. but my mouth was all dry and apparently my tongue wasn't.. so i touched my tongue to the top of my mouth and it got stuck hahahaha! ahhhh being sick always has some funny story to it with me :)
anyways, trying to fast today.. if i fast today i'm pretty sure i can get back to 138. always works that way.. and staying in bed most the time so i'll be doin' some commenting :) .. i know, it's rare. and i'm sorry.
love yall <3
Darn... Your mom just knows too much! Wtf? How does she know everything there is to know about EDs?!
ReplyDeleteLol. Your nose is giving birth, huh? That made me laugh; i love it!
Awww! Yay for dream boy! :) That's adorable. You know, i've found that they really love you when they call you high, otherwise they wouldn't think of you... if that's any consolation about the high part of it. But you seem pretty happy about it anyway, so YAY!
Lol. I've done the same thing with getting my tongue stuck. It's hilarious.
Hahaha nice analogy. And hey at least your abs are getting a good work out!
ReplyDeleteI HATE being sick. I hope you get better soon!
I'm glad your happy :)
ReplyDeleteAnd don't worry about 140, I'm sure that number will be far gone soon.
And get well soon! <3