sick. avoiding a hospital lock up.

i have to make this short because i don't know how long i can stay conscience.. anddd i'm araew my spelling is off lol

last night: snacked. purged. no laxatives? i don't remember. being sick is killing me now
today: snacked because i was about to pass out. threw up? NOT purged. (i'm just sick) then mom brought me pizza, ate it. made easy mac, ate it. purged. ( i was gona throw up anyway )

this morning i stepped on at 139 on the dot. later i stepped on at 138.4
being sick is wearing me out. i'm not so worried about being bloated or what i ate today. sleeping the rest of the day.

pretty sure i can fast tomorrow. doing homework and sleeping. i'm so sick... feels like there's bricks in my chest. it's hard to sleep in my room with my cat because i'm allergic and i stop breathing. same thing downstairs because that's where the dogs sleep. i'm suffering all around. and i don't take medicine because .. well idk. i guess i believe if this was brought to my body, my body can tough it out. RUNNING through this on tuesday at school is a different story. i have to eat so i don't faint in school though. even if i use the sick excuse i'll be sent away. for right now i'm focusing on maintaining and not letting the darkness take over me so i don't get locked up in a hospital.

i made it back to 138 in a day :) my body likes to lose as much as i do apparently. hakuna matata!

be strong <3