that boy never came over. typical. he always does some stupid shit to get himself grounded so we can't hang out. and he's the one who's always begging to hang out.. i fucking hate that shit. i'm pissed!
no food today. i made food cuz i was gona eat it because anger makes me want food for some reason..? but i flushed it. i'm still mad but i just feel sick now.. whatever fml
bitch-friend's house this weekend.. prolly gona eat the house down. gona try to stay strong.. :/ right now i almost don't care but i know that if i eat i'll feel even worse so ima just stay on the couch
plus my chem teacher is a dick and a bad teacher so my mom has to teach me everything and .. that class is just fucked up. today's a bad day. and i still feel like crap from being sick.
OH i'm like 138 on the dot today. hopefully if i can stay away from food tonight i'll be 137 tomorrow.. and that'll make me feel strong enough to not eat at my friend's house.. ima need alot of cigarettes to stay off the food. still on the plan to hardcore fast starting monday for sure. i will see 135. and 130. and 125. i'll get there...
stay strong <3
you can do it! we're all rooting for you!
ReplyDeleteand chemistry is always a bitch. i'm god-awful at science and at one point i just decided that i didn't believe chemistry existed. it all just happens by maaaaaaaaagic. sadly, this did not bode well on my midterm...