k so went out to dinner tonight to show my mom i can feed myself. i ate ALOT but i totally purged like, all of it. and i took laxatives AND stool softeners. i'm gonna be payin for that in about 4 hours.. (i took them at like 5pm)
i was 140 with my sins inside me. i pray tomorrow i'm at 138 again. my physical won't be 'til it gets cold outside so i'm just gona keep on losing and fasting.. and when my physical comes i'll drink alot of water and dress heavy :)
i wana cry and just fall off the earth. my stomach hurts so bad... too much food :(
fasting til.. whenever. i'm totally off the hook. i'm GOING TO BE 135! i just know it.
ps. this weekend. staying in bed. might not even ride on sunday... being sick sucksssssssss. being allergic to all my pets sucks twice as bad. and i just love how my cat sleeps really close to my face to make me stop breathing all the time. i love her but.. dang. lol
goodnight beauties <3
sweet skinny dreams.
Aww i'm sorry your feeling so awful. Food is indeed evil. I'm sure you got rid of it though, what with purging and laxatives, and you'll be 138 tomorrow AND 135 before you know it :) Your plan about the physical sounds like a good one. Stay strong, hunny. Feel better soon.
ReplyDeletechin up hun x
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon,
ReplyDeleteI know you can make it to 135!