so last night with friends over i had a few pieces of pizza and we made cookies. so i had some... i had probably 4 gallons of water all together. no lie. so whatever i've gained, which idk what that is.. i mostly water weight. i hope. i can fast today because i think the parentals are going out and only one friend is going to be here today. maybe. next weekend i'm going to be alone. i think it's being with friends or people in general that ruins it. i can fast for a longggg time. it's people being around that ruins it. ugh. i feel like such crap. like, i almost don't even wanna run. oh but i'm gona take this seriously. more excuses to not eat.. i'm gonna tell my mom that with this running thing i need to eat really healthy so i can get this whole time thing down. but i cannot stop smoking. it's my sanctuary lol from food... ah.
running and sleeping today. riding tomorrow :) and running and sleeping mondayyyy, i hope.
i need to stay a good girl.
be stronggg <3
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