i'm feelin it today! it's a pretty day! perfect weather, the sun's out..happiness is all around me.
sadly i'm horribly stressed out.. :
my bones are less shy than before. y'all know that pretty little chest bone that likes to poke through when your skin gets tight? mine thinks it wants to say hello to the world. sadly, i can't let the world see it. at least, not a doctor or my mom. but.. hers shows?! why can't mine? .. because i'll be sent away for being beautiful. thin. empty. clean. perfect.
my grades are becoming a concern. with math it's always no problem though. i love math! i'm a genius.. but i failed my last test. it was little problems though. i didn't look close enough. and it's always the first bad grade that gets me moving in a class. so i'm not worried about it too much..
chemistry is a bitch. well, my teacher sucks. just the teacher. and i know i'm lazy in school but i get everything done and an A/B average. so my mom has to teach me chemistry.. yay. the fact that i'm not getting it right away is making me so mad! i always get stuff. it's always so easy. it hops right in my brain, but i understand that chemistry takes thinking and i like that.. i hate having to think to understand it though. i'll think for hours on a problem but i hate not having it click in my head..
anyways, i think i'm gonna post pictures of my bones later :) [hungry]heather requested.
i've been wanting to but i kept eating so i wasn't pretty or clean inside so i wasn't going to post nasty, dirty pictures of my bones. or bloated ones... ew.
haven't weighed myself this morning. everyone's still home. they'll be gone in a few hours. i'm living off coffee and cigarettes right now. hopefully all day..
i'm going to my bitch-friend's house later, test of strength, then we're going to see that new Tim Burton movie, 9! :D I LOVE TIM BURTON! yay
stay strong ladies!
<3 we're in this together.
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