Currently, my ana buddy from school is running away and staying with me. No school tomorrow so we're starving. Hard. She's currently at the NeverShoutNever concert, though. I'm pretty jealous.
Ate today... fml. I need to fast and weigh. I refuse to see my ugly numbers. I assume I'm fatter than a whale at the moment.
My boyfriend is so dumb. He expects me to drive everywhere? Sorry, I'm not made of gas. No. But I can't deny I want to be with him.. I'm just too broke. BTW: He knows all my secrets. Every word spoken through this blog, he knows. Not about the blog though.. that might scare him too much. But he doesn't judge or force me to do anything. He sits back and lets me. I love it.
Hi, I'm anorexic. I do drugs. I want to love people as much as I care about them but that can't happen 'til I love myself. I don't think I'll ever love myself. I question continuing the Hell of a life I lead every single day. I cut myself. I can count everyone I'm alive for right now - on one hand. My heart fights my brain to keep on going. I couldn't let anyone down and not debate popping every pill I have. I cry every day.
Life is taking that toll I've been scared of for years.
Fairly certain I'm officially broken inside.
Stay Skinny <3
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