hmm. someone's 13 lbs underweight today. yea, i am (:
131 baby!
so i can't help but say i'm not even hungry anymore. there is no desire for food. my emptiness is my new home. and i HATE to say, i need to eat. the floor almost came at me this morning. i need legitimate food. not a whole meal, of course. i don't think i could suffer that much food down no matter how good it is. i just need to keep myself from blacking out. sadly, we have crappy food in the house and i hate buying it just to throw it back up. i don't plan on eating today. sometime this week, i need to though. i cannot risk blacking out and my mom taking me to the doctor so i can be weighed & be more than 10lbs less than i was last time, resulting in being sent away.
i'm not excusing myself to binge. i just know that "food is life" and i'm running on empty right now. i am tough and can pull through. (:
stay strong loves<3
you are such great thinspo! that's amazing!
ReplyDeleteWow, that's amazing!!! How did you figure out that you're 13 lbs underweight - meaning like is there a chart you are using or a formula? I want to know what weight I need to be in order to be officially underweight...if you want to comment back, my blog is http://aconceptofcontrol.blogspot.com. Thanks!! Way to go!
ReplyDeletedamnn ! Im so happpy for you. I don't think i've commented on your log before which is weird because i'm pretty sure ive read it from start to finishh :) your so inspirational. Awhile ago we were about on the same page but girl your on-point ! losing pounds left and right & your skinnny as shiiiit wtf. im so jealouss/happy for youu. your my Ana-Idol<3 keep up the good work babydoll
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ReplyDeleteAw you're so cute when u get all excited. Lol. But i'd be excited too! You're doing absolutely fantastic! AND you don't even want food, which makes you even more fantastic! Keep up the fantasticness. :)
ReplyDeleteThat is the ULTIMATE high- "I don't like food anymore..." It's an awesome feeling. You're so inpirational to me right now.
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