update, here.

so i've decided i can't live without my sudafed. i feel weak and hungry without it. i don't care what it takes. i'm not a druggie. i am pro-ana. and i will do all i can to keep it that way and get skinnier and skinnier.
138. for months.
unacceptable.

drifiting around 135 - 138.
better than before.

i want 130. today.
and eventually 110. i want that. at least, right now, it sounds good.
if ever i binge i can't even enjoy the food. the hunger isn't even gone. it's just a sickness that's taken over me.

depression is not far. i feel my emotions crashing. i can't bring myself to care about much. i'll drive, and sometimes think about just ramming into another car. i'm overwhelmed. i'm giving my body away. i'm fading into the skies with my beloved. my heart has sunk and stopped. i'm coming to a split in my path.

i'm empty.
i'm crumbling.

stay strong <3